Where can I go to be alone when you’re fucking everywhere.
I don’t want to be a fucking toy.
I have no privacy anymore,
No i’m not okay, thanks for asking.
No I don’t want to talk about it, thanks for asking.
Leave me alone please and stop trying to get into my life.
I know you’re going to leave regardless. That’s what they all do.
I have no more place to be alone.
You’ve always been there for me when things have been down.
You’re always there, to help bring me back around.
You’re really important to me, and I don’t want you to go.
I don’t want to be alone; I don’t want to grow.
You were there when I had my first loss,
You were there when all she did was disappear.
You were there to help me get across,
You were there when I developed my new fear.
I can’t thank you enough for everything you’ve done.
I cry whenever I think that one day you’ll be gone.
I don’t know how I’ll cope,
You were always my last string of hope.
Listening to your words, gives me grace,
For I know that one-day, I’ll just have to face.
The troubles by myself, on my own,
Looking at the pathway that you’ve shown.
I love you, because you’ve helped me live.
You’re the person I want to be.
I love you, because all you ever do is give.
You never think “what about me”.
I love you; I want to be that strong.
I love you, and I know I’m not wrong.
It wasn’t expected,
It changed life for me.
I wish you kept me protected,
You changed how I’m going to be.
One day I was your friend,
The next I’m confused.
You put it all to an end,
Something I wanted to refuse.
I live with a scar of distrust and regret,
Hiding behind a wall.
However I won’t forget,
One day it’ll fall.
I could leave and no one would notice.
I could cut off all communication and no one would care.
No one talks to me, so why am i here?
Why do i have too put in so much effort?
I just want that one person who will text me first.
Someone who will tell me, you look good today.
Some who will always ask for a hug, because they know i’ve had a shitty day.
I want someone to ask me to hang out, someone who loves me as much as i love them.
Is that so hard to find?
It’s been 5 years, and it turns out that it hasn’t changed.
Well fuck you.
Fuck you all.
I can go die and no one would notice.
I can’t help it.
Living a life of not knowing what it’s like to be loved,
Not knowing what it’s like to have someone there for you.
It’s what drove me to be who I am.
I’ve been lonely my whole life, I don’t know how to act when someone tells me they love me.
I never believe it.
I’ve never had someone talk to me first, never had someone ask me what i’m doing on the weekend.
I’ve never been asked to hang out, and I’ve never been asked to have fun.
I’ve lived my whole life thinking, ‘am i worth it?’
I’ve lived my whole life thinking, ‘does anyone care?’
I can’t help it.
It’s how my life has been, and i don’t know how to control it.
This is like that Star Wars: Kinect game, except enjoyable.